Every time I take the Mulholland Pass, it’s a familiar and beautiful view. The green mountain pass, filled with traffic, somehow has a comforting, familiar feeling. Three months post-op, and a lifetime of surgeries-- I find myself reflecting on this journey. In these final months of change, I was forced to face my ongoing fear of needles, rooted in recent health developments—a fear I had inevitably been avoiding due to my own medical traumas. Over a decade since my last crani